Thursday, June 30, 2011

Some more ABCs of Me

A) Apples: I pretty much eat at least one apple per day; add peanut butter it's dessert!

B) Books: I love reading books, it's one of my passions.

C) Cheese: I could eat block after block of cheese.

D) Dolphins: I love dolphins and have dolphin tattoos.  I have a dream of swimming with dolphins, although now that the plight of dolphins in captivity is becoming more well known, I'm not sure I could do it.  I'd have to research a lot first.

E) Eggs: I love eggs in all varieties of ways.  Especially with cheese!

F) Flowers: my favorite is the daisy.

G) Greek yogurt: as in Chobani.  I am a convert and this is the only yogurt I eat; I eat at least 1 per day, sometimes more.

H) Heath: my favorite kind of candy bar.

I) iPhone: I absolutely love my iPod!

J) J and J: my husband and son both have names that start with this letter!!

K) Kitties: I love kittes, I have three, I wish I had more.  I would if they didn't poop and pee.

L) Lasik eye surgery: I had lasik in January 2006 and it was on of the best decisions of my life!

M) Music: I love music and it heals my soul.  I like everything from classical to comtemporary, jazz to heavy metal--okay very little heavy metal.  But I like all genres of music depending on my mood.

N) Nike: I am a Nike runner!  Unfortunately I have ugly Adidas shoes, but I love Nike gear!  Swoosh! 
O) Octopus: something that freaks me out, I do not want to look at them, touch them, and for sure I am not going to eat one!

P) Purple: I love purple, that is a fact!

Q) Quotes: I love inspiring quotes and running quotes and parenting quotes.  Quotes, quotes, quotes.

R) Running: I want to make this my passion; I want to run for life!

S) Scrapbooking: I really enjoy this craft, although I don't make as much time for it as I used to.
T) Traveling: I do not love traveling, but I like it once in awhile.  I love going on cruises, and visiting Disney is my favorite.

U) Umbrella: always in my car when I need it elsewhere.

V) V is the first letter of my last name.

W) Writing: I have always loved writing and have journaled since 1990.  I love using pen & paper, although typing is so much faster and backspace/delete are my friends.

X) Xavier Roberts: the person whose signature was on the Cabbage Patch Kids birth certificate when I was a kid.  I always wondered who this was and I wanted to thank him for my beloved "kids" Mildred Almira and Jessy Lucille.

Y) Yo yo: sometimes I can do this.

Z)  Zzzzz: I love sleeping!!

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

In other shoe news

My perfect and ugly running shoes have been updated and are now available with purple.  Check these out.

Introducing the Adidas Supernova Sequence 4
I love the laces on these, but the orange is kinda bright.  Also love the purple on the heel!
 
I like the lighter gray of these, but they are kinda plain looking.



And these are my current ugly blue running shoes, the Supernova Sequence 3.
These are my current shoes.

I also have this pair which is kinda better except my feet sweat more in this pair for some reason.

The blue shoes still have a good 100 miles left and the pink have probably 300 so, therefore, it would be just plain crazy to buy new shoes right now.  But they now have purple!!! 

Must. Have. Purple. Shoes.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Entering week 8 of the ol' training schedule.

Long runs are boring for me, they just are.  And don't get me started on the pain of them.  I'm pretty sure that I will never if I ever decide to do this half marathon business again, I'm finding a running group or at least another glutton for punishment running partner. 

This week's scheduled long run is 12 miles.  I have been adding one mile per week to the long run over the past 7 weeks.  I mean, my training schedule has been adding a mile.  I, on the other hand, have been staying fairly steady at 5 to 6.5 or even zero miles on the long run.  Say wha?  Yes, you read that right.

I told you my training has been craptastic.  Oh well, I shall still do the half and I know I will finish.  I may not make my goal of 2:30, but I'll cross the finish line with a smile and know that I've accomplished something great!  I cannot wait to get it over with until it's here!

Monday, June 27, 2011

Don't think, just do!

I'm back.  You didn't know I was gone, did you?  Well, I've kind of been laying low and now I'm going to get back online.  But what does that mean?  Hmmm, I'm here with my stats, first.

Starting weight: 236.8
Last week's weight: 157.4 (actually May 24, last check in)
Current weight: 159.4
Gain/loss: +2.0
Total gain/loss: -77.4
Pounds to goal: 22.6

You may notice that I've gotten even farther (further?) from my goal.  Argh!  I'm not too concerned only because I've been weighing anywhere from 156 to 159 for the past month.  It's just that nothing is clicking with me right now.

As for my training, well I posted about that here, and it hasn't really gotten any better.  I'm now wishing I could just get this event over and done with.  I'm looking forward to it, but I'm ready for it to be done.  July 17th can't get here fast enough, although I hate wishing that because it's like wishing the summer to go faster. 

I'm ready to get back to my regularly scheduled running.  My best friend visited over the weekend.  She has also been running for about a year and she is doing awesome.  She really got me to thinking about how much I just miss my fitness runs.  An easy 5K a few times per week sounds excellent right now.  I have always thought that I want to become a "5 mile runner", but now I think I'm a 5K runner. I like that distance.  You have time to warm up, run, cool down, and then still do some good stretching afterwards, and still complete all of it in well under an hour.  It feels easier to add in some other activities with that distance as well.  For some reason I've had it in my head that if I'm not doing 15-20 miles a week, I'm not doing enough.  I don't know where that idea came from, but that's what I've been stuck on.  But what if I did some biking or swimming, some strength training, and some running?  Maybe only 12 miles a week, or even less?  That should be okay, shouldn't it?  I'm trying to get to a place where that feels okay.

I really need to add in some other activities.  I wouldn't say I'm getting bored with running, but I do need some additional exercises to start shaping this body.  Running is not enough.  I never thought it was, but I wasn't really ready to add anything else.  Now I feel more ready.  My friend is doing Zumba and yoga which she loves and I would like to add in something like that too.  Whether it's a class or in my basement, I just need to do it!  Do it!  Do it!  Don't think, just do!  Right?

As for my weight, I still have my goal weight set at 136.8, but right now, my mini-goal is 149.  Once I reach that number, I'm going to evaluate how I feel about where I am at.  I have been down to 152 and now I'm back up to 159 and quite possibly the 130s are too low for me.  I try not to get too fixated on a number (say 15-20 miles a week, for instance), but in my heart I know I am not happy being in the 150s so I'm not ready to change my goal yet.  But I might settle for a 90 pound loss instead of 100.  Of even an 86 pound loss.  I just want to get out of the 150s, a place I have been since November!  It's kind of freeing to think about actually, that I might find a weight that I am happy with that's not just about a number, but also about how I feel.  I have never taken the time to think about that part of it, I've always been fixated on a number.  I do believe my original goal weight was 145, but then I decided it would be fun to lose 100 pounds and changed it to 136.8.  I gotta tell you, though, 145 sounds good right now.

Size is becoming a huge thing to me, as in clothes sizes.  I wanted to wear a size 8, but I think I am okay with a size 10.  What I'm not okay with is the muffin top midsection!!  I bought some capris at American Eagle the other night, size 10.  They fit, but they are very snug in the waist!  I know some bloggers who outweigh me by 30+ pounds who are still smaller than me!  But they are very active in all around fitness activities (running, cross training, strength training) when all I do is run.  That is why I feel really ready to add in some other activities.  I might firm up and lose inches even if I don't lose 100 pounds.  145 or 149 might feel terrific if I were several inches smaller.  The only thing that can make that happen is me, and I need to take the steps and get it done.

I've learned that I can be a solitary runner (except for long runs and that's another post), but I think I need group fitness classes.  Whenever I try and start something in my basement, I quickly lose interest because it gets mundane and boring, even after 2 sessions.  Currently I don't know anyone I can work out with, but perhaps if I rejoin a gym, or find some community fitness activities, I can meet some people. I just cancelled my gym membership in February because I didn't think it was for me, but I've really been digging deep lately into just what my ultimate goals are and how I can achieve them.  Is a gym the way to do it?  I'm deciding.

I'm also still working on my workout schedule.  Morning?  Evening?  Both?  This morning was my first day back at work after a week of being on pseudo-vacation (i.e., not having to come to the office but keeping up with email and a couple projects).  We were out to dinner with friends last night and I had a few things to take care of when I got home so I didn't get to bed until after 11:30.  This means a morning run is doomed.  This late night stuff happens way too often.  That means after work I'll have to run.  And of course I'll HAVE to because of this training thing, and having to really makes me cranky.  I don't want to HAVE to!  Oh, I can't wait until this half marathon is over.

So there you have it.  Still here, still trying, still thinking more than doing.

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Here's me today


After spending the day at the pool, my husband and I had dinner plans with friends.  We asked our son to snap a quick photo so here is what I look like today (with the sun in my eyes).  Be back tomorrow with a weigh in and update.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Hitting a Wall

I am 6 weeks into my half marathon training, my race is 1 month from yesterday!  To say that the training isn't going as planned is probably an understatement.  The truth of the matter is that neither the physical or mental part of the training is going well.  I have not been able to complete the mileage on any long run, and this week I missed it altogether.  This lack of success is really playing with with my mental state.  I am doubting myself so much and all my runs lately, long and short, have been sub par.  It's awful really.  I keep trying to shake myself free of these feelings, but it's not working.  And do you want to hear something dumb?  I have a big owie inside my cheek which is totally making me feel terrible all over.  My glands are swollen and I'm so achy.  And that's the reason I missed my long run this week.  Lame, I know.

I'm not sure if it's the fueling or hydrating before running.  Or if it's overall nutrition.  And believe me, I've spent a lot of time stressing thinking about it.  It's craziness.

The other issue I'm having is that I'm not loving running out of what feels like necessity.  I stress that I have this event coming up and I HAVE to train, sand then I get out there and run and it's not enjoyable.  I was so looking forward to this training plan and to have it turning out like this is a real disappointment.  I'm really trying for the attitude adjustment, but so far, it's for naught.  I'm sitting here with the negative self talk going on all the time.

I feel like I've hit the wall with my training.  And I'm hating this feeling.

So I pose these questions: do you eat before running in the morning?  Does it depend on your planned mileage.  Do you take water on every run, no matter the distance?  Do you think it's better to train yourself to run with less water?

Thursday, June 16, 2011

My Thoughts on Running a Half Marathon

5K is my favorite distance.

5 miles is a challenge.

10K is very far.

12K is even farther.

13.1 miles...I'm skeered!

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

My Thoughts on Running Today

It's hard.

I hate it.

Please don't make me do it.

Thursday, June 9, 2011

I'd like to comment on your blog

I am having issues commenting on Blogger blogs.  I have tried for days and days on several different blogs and I keep getting the message that I need to login.  I login, leave comment, post, then get the message to login.  It's positively maddening!  So I'm sorry I'm neglecting your blogs.  It's not my fault!!  And it's both my work and home computer.  What gives?!

Anyway, just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you!!

Thanks for all the nice comments on my race photos.  I really hope there is a photographer on site at my half!  And that I remember to smile.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

CDA 5K Race Photos

Yes, I'm one of those people who spends lots of money to purchase my race photos.  I love official race photos.  Here are the ones from last Sunday's 5K. 

Cheesy smile and wave!  I love this one, I wish my head wasn't cut off.

Rounding the corner to the finish.

Right before the finish, I wish I would have smiled!!


And for comparison's sake, here's last year's finish photo.


Friday, June 3, 2011

Fun Friday

Rather than bore you with the details of my ridiculously terrible run this morning, I give you the ABCDEFood survey instead.  I stole this idea from Syl.

ABCDEFood!

A: is for Apple, what’s your favorite variety?
Pink Lady or Empire

B: is for Bread, regardless of nutrition, calories, or whole grains what is your favorite type to have a nice big piece of?
Sourdough

C: is for Cereal what is your favorite kind currently (just one!)
Granola, but I don't keep it in the house or I eat it all in one day.

D: is for Doughnuts, you might not currently be eating them but what kind do you fancy?
Maple bars!!!

E: is for Eggs, how would you like yours prepared?
White cooked, yolk runny, or scrambled.

F: is for Fat Free, what is your favorite fat free product?
Greek yogurt, Chobani 0% to be exact!

G: is for Groceries, where do you purchase yours at?
Costco and Fred Meyer (Kroger)

H: is for Hot Beverages, what is your favorite hot drink?
Coffee!!!

I: is for Ice Cream, pick a favorite flavor and add a fun topping.
No topping needed for Ben & Jerry's Toffee Heath Bar Crunch.  If I had to pick a topping for it, it would be caramel!

J: is for Jams or Jellies, do you eat them, and if so what kind and flavor?
Not a huge fan, but I do like grape jelly on PB&J sandwiches.

K: is for Kashi, name your favorite Kashi product?
Autumn Wheat cereal

L: is for Lunch, what was yours today?
2 eggs with a sandwich thin and carrots

M: is for microwave, what is your favorite microwave meal/snack?
Definitely popcorn.

N: is for nutrients, do you like carbs, fats, or proteins best?
Carbs!

O: is for oil, what kind do you like to use?
Olive oil

P: is for protein, how do you get yours?
Usually from Dairy and some chicken or ground turkey.  I'm not a huge meat eater.  Oh, and eggs!  And beans and whole grains.

Q: is for Quaker, how do you like your oats?
Well, I love granola, but I like oatmeal with canned pumpkin, a little milk, water, and lots of cinnamon.

R: is for roasting, what is your favorite thing to roast?
Probably turkey or potatoes.

S: is for sandwich, what’s your favorite kind?
If I'm being good, turkey.  If I'm eating whatever I want, grilled cheese.

T: is for travel, how do you handle eating while traveling?
If I'm traveling it's vacation and I usually splurge a bit.  Vacation only comes once in while.

U: is for unique, what is one of your weirdest food combos?
Pasta and cottage cheese.

V: is for vitamins, what kind do you take?
Multi-vitamin, B12 and Vitamin D

W: is for wasabi, yay or nay?
Not for me.

X: is for X-RAY. if we x-rayed your belly right now, what food would we see?
My lunch (see above)

Y: is for youth, what food reminds you of your childhood?
Top Ramen

Z: is for zucchini, how do you prepare it?
Sauteed

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Coeur d'Alene 5K at Riverstone - Race Recap 5/29/11 (A PR!)

All last week the forecast for the weekend was cold temps with rain.  Somehow the outlook changed long about Friday and sun with milder temps was expected for our Sunday race day.  It was a bit cool in the morning, but the sun was shining!  Hallelujah!

Here I am with my parents before the race.


This was my very first event last year fresh off the Couch to 5K training plan when my mile pace was right around 12 minutes.  My goal last year had been merely to run the entire way without stopping to walk.  I reached that goal and finished in 36:27!!  I went into the race this year with a plan to beat my time from last year.  My unspoken goal was to finish in under 30 minutes.

I'm so proud to say that I DID IT!

Official race time: 29:34!!! 

Yes, that is my fastest 5K to date! 

I have to say that I felt awesome before, during and after this race.  I love this course because it's paved and basically flat.  It's held on the Centennial Trail which was made for biking, running, and walking activities, and is not subject to car exhaust, potholes, and the like.  Since it's an out and back course, it is awesome to see the winners making their way back.  Another plus is the amount of numb skulls who stop and walk without taking notice of who is behind them is minimal.   All in all, I would say that this might be my favorite race, and definitely my favorite race distance.

My Garmin was very helpful on this one, and of all the running gear I think I can't live without, Forrest is number one on the list.  I didn't want to make the mistake of starting too fast so I made sure to keep track of my pace in the beginning.  I absolutely love having the distance, pace and time easily accessible on my wrist.  I can see it becoming an obsession for some, but I use it as a tool not an obstacle.

Anyway, I keep watching the race site for race photos and they haven't been posted yet.  I hope to update this post later with an official photo.  The one below was taken by my husband.  I notice my form does not look all that great.  Oh well.


Heel strike, anyone?
After this, my second event of the season, I'm feeling pumped, although, for some reason I go through a case of the nerves in the days leading up the event.  So much so that I start feeling as though I don't even want to do it at all.  Luckily I push through the nerves and make it to the starting line.  I thought this one would be different because I'd done it once already, but nope, I still nearly chickened out.  The feeling goes away soon after the race gets underway, but it's definitely there at the beginning.  I'm already worrying about my half next month.  It's next month, people!!
What about you?  Do you get nervous before events?  How do you deal with it?

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Runner's Survey

I stole this survey idea from Jess over at Run with Jess.  Check her out if you haven't already.

What is your favorite type of cross training?
Walking or recumbent bike.  Sadly I do neither of each on a regular basis.

What is your favorite song to run to?
No favorite song right now, but I'm loving the new Adele album, and most anything from Lady Gaga keeps me going.  I have tried running without music and I just prefer my tunes!

What brand of shoes do you wear?
Adidas Supernova Sequence 3

Do you wear a hat when you run?
I have worn a hat only twice, but I know I will wear it if it's raining.

What temperature is your favorite for running?
Probably around 58-60 degress and sunny.

Do you have any big races coming up?
This Sunday I have a 5K and my first half marathon is July 17th, followed by an 8K on July 23rd.

What is your favorite distance?
For regular everday running: 5 miles.  For races: 10K.

Are you a morning, noon or evening runner?
I would prefer noon, but that's usually doesn't work out so my second choice is morning.

Do you run solo or with a buddy?
I have run with my best friend a handful of times because we don't live close, otherwise I run solo.  I prefer it that way, unless my bf and I live close someday-then I'd love to run regularly with her.

What's your favorite post run snack?
English muffin with peanut butter and banana, or Chobani!

What's your FAVORITE race?
Bloomsday has been my favorite so far.  It's such a tradition for our city and my family that I am proud to be a Bloomie!

Do you wear a Garmin?  If not, how do you track your runs? 
Yes, Garmin 405.  I love love love it!  I don't know how I ever lived without it.  I used Nike+ for tracking for the first year, but now that I have a Garmin, I'm hooked.

What is your least favorite race?
I will say my 10K on 10/10/10.  It was cold and dreary that day and they ran out of water!!  I had to switch off my regular running shoes to another sub-par pair and my knee was having issues.  To top all that off, the cotton t-shirt was seriously ugly!  For my big race of the year, it was a disappointing, but my feeling of accomplishment far outweighed any of that.

What race is your favorite medal from?
Sadly, although I have done 6 races, I have no medals.  In these parts, you really only get medals for a half marathon.  I did find a 10K which I'll run in September which gives medals, so with luck on my side, I'll get two medals this year.

Who is your running idol?
I guess I'd say Kara Goucher, but to be honest I don't really know any famous runners or follow them.  My biggest idols are actually the everyday people who go from couch to runner, especially if they shed pounds along the way.

How long have you been a runner?
I became a runner in 2010.

Do you run with your engagement/wedding ring on?
I do, but I need to stop that!  It's safer to run without and safety matters!  I need to ditch the ring and grab some pepper spray!

What's your favorite workout? repeats? long runs? tempo? fartleks?
Long runs.  Nothing makes me feel more accomplished and proud of myself than a good, long run.  Plus, I am not built for speed so I like taking it slow and easy.

So the real point of this survey is this: I'll be out running alone, about 2.5 miles from my house, in the early morning, hatless (unless it's raining), wearing Adidas and my diamond ring, not carrying pepper spray, and listening to music (i.e., I won't hear anyone approaching).  If you plan to attack me, please bring my favorite post-run snack (above), and could you make sure to pause my Garmin? :-) 

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Impossible Is Nothing: Auria Earphones Review & Giveaway!!!

Check it out:

Impossible Is Nothing: Auria Earphones Review & Giveaway!!!

It is What it Is

I'm going to start posting my stats each week as follows:

Starting weight: 236.8
Last week's weight: 156.6
Current weight: 157.4
Gain/loss: +.8
Total gain/loss: -79.4
Pounds to goal: 20.6

I honestly think the scale should be lower, but it is what it is.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Hi there!

First of all, thank you for the kind, kind comments regarding my picture on Thursday.  They all made me feel wonderful!  It makes me think I should update my blog header even more (thanks for the suggestion, Paula!).  I am wearing another white shirt today, but I'll spare you the details because it's a boring polo shirt with my company's logo on the front.  I call it "sporting my school spirit". 

Anyway, I weighed in this morning and wouldn't you know it I weighed over 5 pounds more than I did yesterday!  And yesterday was significantly lower than last Monday's weight.  I'm assuming it was the popcorn (salt) I ate before bed, but instead of focusing on it too much, I'm going to let it go and not record my weight today.  I absolutely cannot stand the effects that salt has on my weight loss (or gain, as the case actually is!)

I wanted to update you on my caffeine/fluid reduction project.  It has now been two weeks since I started this plan and while the reduction part is going fine, the results of it are disappointing.  I cut down to 2 cups of coffee the first three days and then cut down to one.  I am still at one, but this down from 5-7 a day is a huge change.  I also try and only drink 64 ounces of water each day unless I'm super thirsty, and I cut off the liquids around 7pm.  So all that is good.

I'm not keeping a log or anything, but I'm sure that I am in the bathroom just as much, and I am now resigned to the fact that I'll probably log too much time in the porta-potties during my half marathon.  Last Saturday I went for my scheduled 55 minute run and had to come home at the halfway mark to pee!  And it's not like I have to go so bad that I'm dying, it's more that I know if I have to go the stress of running with anything in my bladder will lead to problems, especially if I run any downhills!  It's truly and completely irritating! 

I also don't know if I see a difference in how I feel without the caffeine.  Yesterday I would have said no difference at all, however, this morning made me think I do wake up a little more alert.  Last night I could not get to sleep.  For one, I just wasn't comfortable, and for two, I had to pee too many times (drank too much water after dinner).  When I finally did get to sleep I was awakened a few times in the night, again, to pee.  Arrrgh!  So when my alarm went off at 5:40 I hit snooze.  Then again at 5:49.  Then I turned it off at 5:58 resolved to sleep for another two hours.  But as I laid there I realized that I wasn't all that tired despite my late night and interrupted sleep.  So after about 5 more minutes I got up and headed out for my 35 minute run.  I guess I thought I would be tired so when my alarm when off I told myself I was, but as I thought about it longer I realized I could get up.  A fluke?  I don't know.  Of course reminding myself how I'd have to be running at 9pm if I didn't get up then might have motivated me a little too. 

Anyway, I'm not quitting my project and will continue.  One advantage to limiting caffeine is that I don't have to worry about a caffeine headache.  One thing about morning runs and morning races is that I don't want to drink coffee beforehand to avoid as much liquid as possible, but then I usually end up with a headache if I go too long without.  Not having to worry about such things is definitely a positive side effect of this project.  Although I still miss my coffee.  Coffee in the morning, coffee in the evening, coffee all day long. 

One other quick note, I changed my training schedule just a bit to allow for a rest day this Saturday instead of a long run.  I realized that since I'm running a 5K event on Sunday, I'd rather rest the day before so I switched around my running days this week.  I want to run strong in the 5K race because this particular event was my first one last year so it's kind of a milestone of sorts.  It's been a fun year since that first event and I can't wait to run it again!

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Wearing White

If you've ever been a heavy woman with heavy woman-sized breasts, you know what it feels like to have a built in drip tray.  I'd like to say it was convenient, however, it was annoying and embarrassing.  Not being able to properly lean over your plate when eating is horrible, and grease spots from an errant piece of food hitting your shirt is a serious problem.

When I was heavier I most certainly did not ever wear light colors and never ever white.  A grease mark on a dark shirt would be bad, but a big colored food or drink stain on a white shirt would be terrible.  Talk about embarrassing!  No heavy woman wants to walk around with evidence of their lunch front and center on their shirt!   If you've been there, you know what I'm talking about.

As I've lost weight, I'm slowly bringing color back in my life.  Navy blue and black still have their place, but pink and yellow have also found a home in my closet.  Colors make me happy!  Awhile ago I even added some white shirts (horror!), but I have been too nervous to actually wear them.  Well, today the sun is shining, I feel wonderful, and I'm finally wearing white!  It's a fabulous day!

Cell phone pic - pardon the quality

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Eleven on 11/11/11

Real quick: today is my 15 year wedding anniversary!  Happy anniversary, Honey!!!

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Last year I ran a 10K on 10/10/10. 

This year I will run 11 miles on the TREADMILL on 11/11/11.  I am very excited about this!!! 

As of today my longest run on the mill has been 5 miles, but I am challenging myself to run 11 miles on that day. 

What do you think, will you join me?

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Schedule of 2011 events:

05/01/11 - Bloomsday 12K (done)
05/29/11 - CDA 5K
07/17/11 - See Jane Run Half Marathon (less than 2 months!!)
07/23/11 - Spokane Indians 8K Pennant race
09/11/11 - Athleta Iron Girl 10K
10/09/11 - Spokane 10K
11/11/11 - 11 miles on the treadmill

I think this will be it for this year. Well, there will be a couple of events with my son, but not runs in which I'll be challenging myself to achieve a PR or anything.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

On Track

Yesterday I had a terrific day on plan.  I also logged training Run #1 for Week #2.  That was one awesome run too.  It was only 35 minutes and I felt like I could keep going and going, but I'm sticking to my plan.

Yesterday I weighed 159.8, today I weigh 156.6.  See what I said about the salt?

I'm still up in the air about joining WW meetings.  Given our change in finances, I really feel like I should not put out any money that's not absolutely necessary.  I'm still paying for my online membership and I'm working my hardest to get back on track and stay there until goal.

Thank you for the kind words regarding my husband's employment situation.  It truly is the hardest thing we've ever faced.  And there is no end in sight.  Unemployment is high in our state, especially in our city.  While he has applied for a few jobs in western Washington, it would have to be a pretty fabulous opportunity before I would consider relocating.  It would also depend on whether I could transfer to our other office or not.  Basically, I have absolutely no desire to relocate, especially for a job.  I would be so worried about making a huge change and then falling victim to the economy again.  I can't imagine it.  It's hard enough facing this while we're surrounded by family and friends.  Anyway, I don't know what we're going to do.  It's time to negotiate with the credit card companies, that's for sure. 

I have heard of two situations lately where people I knew "weren't looking" for jobs and a great opportunity just "feel in their lap"!  (These people or opportunities are not in our town.)  My husband has been looking for work for 20 months and clearly doesn't have the right contacts or experience because nothing is falling on him at all.  I get wrapped up in the thoughts of "it's not fair".  And it isn't, but neither is life, so I just need to suck it up!  It could be worse, a lot worse.  I do count the blessings we have and try not to fret, but fretting is in my nature.  One day at a time, 609 days later.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Sunday Sobfest

There's no doubt about it, I have just had the most craptastic week on record.  I ate too much, I didn't track enough, and I feel awful, just terrible.  I did get in all my runs, but I didn't do any yoga.  I hate saying this because it was my first week of training, but it's true.  I went completely off the diet grid.

Now, I will say that my eating last week as compared to how I used to eat was fairly tame, but that's really of no comfort here.  I feel terrible right now, did I mention that?

I have had an unusual craving for salty things lately.  Chips, popcorn, roasted nuts.  Honestly I don't know what has gotten into me.  And it's kind of scaring me because everyday I get up and feel like it's a new start and I'll do better, and then by evening I've done something really stupid like eat an entire 8-serving bag of pita chips. Then I go to bed full of self loathing and hatred of my behavior.  I don't like it, not one little bit.

I have been asking myself what the problem is, what's the disconnect, why am I falling into these old patterns?  Unfortunately I haven't really come up with anything.

It is disheartening to know also that even though I'm still running, eating extra calories makes me gain weight.  I hope a lot of it is water.  If I can just get things under control, I know some of the weight will melt away.  This morning the scale read 159.8.  Who knows what it will be tomorrow. 

I am desperate enough to be considering joining Weight Watchers and attending meetings.  I am thinking a little change and extra accountability might be a good thing.  Or it might just be a waste of time and money.  I have been doing this on my own for months.  I want to succeed on my own.  I just need to get it together.

My husband still has not found employment and this week is our last week of unemployment payments.  There is some state money possibly, but nothing is for sure and the timeframe is not guaranteed.  In other words, we are now officially a one income family and we have some difficult choices to make.  This is stressing me out.  I am perhaps eating my way through the stress.