But guess what?! I've lost weight!! Monday, I weighed in at 200.0! Strange to feel excited about that number, but it represents a loss of over 15 lbs since January 8 when I strongly recommitted to this health journey of mine. I feel in control for the first time in quite a long time.
I haven't started exercising yet, but I've thought about it a whole lot. Doesn't that count? I want to do it, I just can't get motivated enough to do it. I'm still in the bad place which makes doing pretty much anything really, really hard. My mood goes up and down and lately it's been down. I know it's the time of year so I'm trying not to get too down (pun intended) on myself, but I want to just snap my fingers and be HAPPY! Is that too much to ask?! And it's not that I'm not happy, it's that I'm kinda just...flat. Lately, the anxiety is really getting to me, though.
I have been trying to focus on other things besides health. Little things, silly things, things that make me happy even though they are quite materialistic. I know happiness cannot be found in things, but sometimes things do make life a bit better. Brighter even.
I leave you tonight with a picture of one of my latest bright and fun things, my ultraviolet Coach purse and wallet, a Christmas present from me and my mom to me. :)
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